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We Continue Awakening by Dealing with Internal Disturbances – PART TWO

Practicing the Here and Now

Being Intentional with Step 11 Using Prayer & Meditation to work All the Steps

An Excerpt from Chapter 7: How Step Ten Works

The promises articulated on pages 83 and 84 of the Big Book “will always materialize if we work for them” (italics added). The initial work is Step Ten. The continued work is to improve and enlarge our consciousness through our practice of Steps Eleven and Twelve, respectively. The work of these three steps Bill W. calls “our way of living.”

We have walked the path of the “destruction of self-centeredness”: Steps One through Nine. As we’re cleaning up the past, doing Step Nine, we are to grow “in understanding” (through meditation and prayer) “and effectiveness” (through consistent practice of principles). Now we have turned, have been turned, “. . . in all things to the Father of Light who presides over us all” (Big Book, page 14). We have emerged from the world of self, and we have entered the world of Spirit.

And we can continue to address these disturbances “when they crop up” (page 84). When, not if! So we continue to watch for selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear.

These are the major components of the original problems examined in the Step Four inventory. So we apply the remedy, the solution we applied in Steps Five through Nine:

  1. “We ask God at once to remove them”: Prayer . . . because we have experienced that we are powerless— Steps Six/ Seven: “My Creator . . . .”
  2. “We discuss them with someone immediately”: Confession . . . because we’re human and want to hold ourselves accountable— Step Five: No secrets.
  3. “Make amends quickly . . .”: Love and tolerance becomes our code . . . because our intention is to be a healthy human being living in harmony in a community of human beings— Steps Eight/ Nine: Forgiveness.
  4. “We resolutely turn our thoughts to someone we can help” . . . because the ultimate remedy for our self- centeredness is the “turning” to be other-centered— Step Twelve: Service.

The Twelve and Twelve describes this formula as the Step Ten inventory process to be used on the spot:

  • to take “a continuous look at our assets and liabilities”
  • “to keep in emotional balance”
  • “to learn and grow”
  • to create “a habit of self-searching, accurate self-appraisal, unsparing self-survey”
  • to admit and accept the truth
  • to correct what is wrong, to rebalance those excesses of negative emotions
  • to live serenely We have recovered, as the Big Book suggests (pages 84– 85).

PART ONE

Herb K.

Herb K. was given the gift of freedom from alcohol February 21, 1984. As a result of the application of the Twelve Steps as contained precisely in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, he experienced a profound spiritual awakening in 1988. Since then he has been very involved in carrying the message of recovery through presentations, facilitating workshops, and leading retreats.

He has authored three books to help people access the instructions and confirm the actual process contained in the Big Book for experiencing a spiritual awakening: Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11 (2017), Twelve-Step Guide to Using the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book (2004) and Twelve Steps to Spiritual Awakening: Enlightenment for Everyone (2010). His books are available on Amazon and other locations.


This is part one of a special five part blog series on HerbK.com to help those preparing for an Emotional Sobriety workshop reflect and meditate. It is an excerpt from Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11.  Specifically it is Chapter 7,  "We Continue Awakening by Dealing with Internal Disturbances."

Allen Berger, PhD and Herb K. have been hosting workshops as more people recognize the importance of Emotional Sobriety, especially in long-term recovery.  Bill W. first coined the term in a letter written and then published in AA Grapevine in 1958 (see The Next Frontier: Emotional Sobriety for more background.)

In addition to workshops and retreats on the topic of Emotional Sobriety, Allen Berger and Herb K. have founded the Institute for Optimal Recovery and you can find resources, events updates and more on the Facebook page OPTIMAL RECOVERY.


 

“We have entered the world of the Spirit. Our next function is to grow in understanding and effectiveness.”

— BIG BOOK, page 84

Keep these questions in mind

  • Am I aware of my tendency to fall asleep, unintentionally unconscious?
  • Am I committed to a daily practice to stay awake, intentionally conscious?
  • Am I willing to work at keeping my channel clear to enable – a vital prayer and meditation practice? – a life of compassionate service based on universal principles?
  • Am I willing to have a guide or teacher?
  • Am I willing to be accountable for my daily inventory practice and my daily behavior?

We Continue Awakening by Dealing with Internal Disturbances – PART ONE

Practicing the Here and Now

Being Intentional with Step 11 Using Prayer & Meditation to work All the Steps

An Excerpt from Chapter 7

STEP TEN IS A TOOL that captures and releases the transformative power of Steps One through Nine for the continued “deflation of ego at depth.” The fact is, we never transcend our basic humanity: we are finite body, mind, and will: all functions that regularly misfire.

Step Ten is the tool that keeps open the gate to the world of Spirit, the instrument through which we establish and foster emotional sobriety.

The Twelve and Twelve (page 90) suggests a spiritual axiom: “Whenever I’m disturbed there is something wrong with me.” It further explains that Step Ten is a “spot-check” inventory. That is, on the spot, at the very moment of our “disturbance,” we pause, taking responsibility for that disturbance. We apply the Step Ten formula immediately— not in writing, not at night. We are to address the disturbance right now as a method of dealing with this very moment’s disturbance. Our body’s survival instinct is to react, generating emotions. These feelings direct our attention and behavior toward what we feel, at that time, is in our best interest. Our mind’s function is to receive all this data, to think, perceive, and know (intuit) what’s truly best for us in that moment.

The mind’s problem is that it is a lens formed by our biology, psychology, social framework, and experiences. It sees reality as we are, not as reality objectively is. Our will— that function in us that makes us uniquely human— relies on our instincts, our feelings, and our intuitions to make its choice for action. If any of these prior functions go awry, we will make unhealthy choices and therefore take unhealthy actions.

Step Ten is our spiritual instrument of intervention, for recalibration of our various systems for surviving and flourishing.

 

PART TWO

Herb K.

Herb K. was given the gift of freedom from alcohol February 21, 1984. As a result of the application of the Twelve Steps as contained precisely in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, he experienced a profound spiritual awakening in 1988. Since then he has been very involved in carrying the message of recovery through presentations, facilitating workshops, and leading retreats.

He has authored three books to help people access the instructions and confirm the actual process contained in the Big Book for experiencing a spiritual awakening: Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11 (2017), Twelve-Step Guide to Using the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book (2004) and Twelve Steps to Spiritual Awakening: Enlightenment for Everyone (2010). His books are available on Amazon and other locations.


This is part one of a special five part blog series on HerbK.com to help those preparing for an Emotional Sobriety workshop reflect and meditate. It is an excerpt from Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11.  Specifically it is Chapter 7,  "We Continue Awakening by Dealing with Internal Disturbances."

Allen Berger, PhD and Herb K. have been hosting workshops as more people recognize the importance of Emotional Sobriety, especially in long-term recovery.  Bill W. first coined the term in a letter written and then published in AA Grapevine in 1958 (see The Next Frontier: Emotional Sobriety for more background.)

In addition to workshops and retreats on the topic of Emotional Sobriety, Allen Berger and Herb K. have founded the Institute for Optimal Recovery and you can find resources, events updates and more on the Facebook page OPTIMAL RECOVERY.


 

“We have entered the world of the Spirit. Our next function is to grow in understanding and effectiveness.”

— BIG BOOK, page 84

Keep these questions in mind

  • Am I aware of my tendency to fall asleep, unintentionally unconscious?
  • Am I committed to a daily practice to stay awake, intentionally conscious?
  • Am I willing to work at keeping my channel clear to enable – a vital prayer and meditation practice? – a life of compassionate service based on universal principles?
  • Am I willing to have a guide or teacher?
  • Am I willing to be accountable for my daily inventory practice and my daily behavior?

Inventory of Your Spiritual Condition

Author: Herb K.

Rancho Palos Verdes, CA
herbk12@hotmail.com
www.herbk.com

Ask yourself these vital questions:

Relationship with Mystery
  • What is your current brokenness? In what ways do you experience the bedevilments of doing what you don’t what to do and not doing what you want to do?
  • What do you actually believe about God? How do you behave in light of what you believe – or what you believe you believe? Are you really a practical agnostic?
  • What relationship do you yearn to have (need to have) with the Mystery?

 

Relationship with self
  • What are the obstacles to your relationship to Mystery?
  • Are you willing to reveal them all – every secret?
  • Are you willing to be changed?

 

Relationship with others
  • How have you damaged the people in your history?
  • Are you willing to change your behavior and repair all the damage?
  • Are there people in your life who remain unforgiven? Have you forgiven yourself?

 

Way of life
  • Are you awake to being disturbed?
  • Are you consistent in your efforts to have your consciousness improved?
  • Do you have an attitude of love and tolerance; are you involved in compassionate service? Are you committed to a life of harmony with spiritual principles?

Herb K. was given the gift of freedom from alcohol February 21, 1984. As a result of the application of the Twelve Steps as contained precisely in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, he experienced a profound spiritual awakening in 1988. Since then he has been very involved in carrying the message of recovery through presentations, facilitating workshops, and leading retreats.

He has authored three books to help people access the instructions and confirm the actual process contained in the Big Book for experiencing a spiritual awakening: Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11 (2017), Twelve-Step Guide to Using the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book (2004) and Twelve Steps to Spiritual Awakening: Enlightenment for Everyone (2010). His books are available on Amazon and other locations.

Principles for Walking This Path

Author: Herb K.

Rancho Palos Verdes, CA
herbk12@hotmail.com
www.herbk.com

Our Way of Life

1. I am not the center of life.

2. I am the center of my life.

3. Don’t take life personally.

4. Do take reality as it is.

5. I am responsible for my:
Perceptions,
Emotions,
Behaviors.

6. I am not responsible for your:
Perceptions,
Emotions,
Behaviors.

7. When I don’t change my actions, my life stays the same, no matter what I think or feel.

8. When I do change my actions, my thinking and feeling change – then my entire life changes.

9. This present moment will pass.

10. This present moment is the only time I can actually live.

11. I am really going to die!

12. I need to ask: Am I really going to live?

13. There is no one coming to save me.

14. I am the one I am waiting for!


Herb K. was given the gift of freedom from alcohol February 21, 1984. As a result of the application of the Twelve Steps as contained precisely in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, he experienced a profound spiritual awakening in 1988. Since then he has been very involved in carrying the message of recovery through presentations, facilitating workshops, and leading retreats.

He has authored three books to help people access the instructions and confirm the actual process contained in the Big Book for experiencing a spiritual awakening: Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11 (2017), Twelve-Step Guide to Using the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book (2004) and Twelve Steps to Spiritual Awakening: Enlightenment for Everyone (2010). His books are available on Amazon and other locations.

Forgiveness is a Process Not an Event

Author: Herb K.

Rancho Palos Verdes, CA
herbk12@hotmail.com
www.herbk.com

A forgiving person has no past. An unforgiving person has no future.

 What is Forgiveness?

Forgiveness is Not to…

  • Condone
  • Forget
  • Tolerate
  • Ignore
  • Approve
  • Excuse
  • Minimize
  • Pardon
  • Deny
  • Absolve
  • Reconcile
  • Invite to hurt again
  • Surrender justice

 

Forgiveness Is a Decision to not

  • Retaliate
  • Exact revenge
  • Seek compensation
  • Judge

 

Forgiveness Is a Decision to

  • Release them
  • Release ourselves
  • Be released

 

What is the process?

 

Accept the facts: Betrayal = it did happen; I was hurt.

 

Open your mind, memories and heart to remember the hurts, the wounds, where and when you have been let down, dishonored, abused, lied to, cheated on; diminished in spirit and emotion; diminished physically and financially.

 

Bring to your mind, to your memory and to your heart a picture of the betrayer; your father, mother, husband, wife, boyfriend, girlfriend, brother, sister, relative, friend; have you been betrayed by your school, church, the judicial system, healthcare system, legal system, the government?

 

This is the reality—it did happen—we have been betrayed, hurt and deeply wounded. Name it and accept it. It’s tragic and it’s true.

 

Accept the facts of the process of forgiveness: I can be healed from these soul wounds. The process begins when I decide to release them and myself; to release my current feelings about the events of my past.

 

To forgive is not to condone or excuse the behavior. What was done was wrong.

 

To forgive is not to pardon—that’s not mine to give—I don’t have the power to absolve.

 

To forgive is not to forget. I am saddened by the memory, must grieve the event, and resolve to never let it happen again.

 

To forgive is to release from debt; to release from the demand for retribution or retaliation.

 

To forgive is to surrender the right to get even; to release my current feelings about my past “rights”.

 

The reality is that as long as I hold onto these hurts, they possess me; actually, they poison me physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

 

To forgive them is to take responsibility for my part, which may only be that I have been holding onto these memories, these feelings, and have allowed them to continue to devastate my physical, emotional and spiritual life. Am I willing to release my feelings about the event?

 

To forgive myself is to experience my regret, remorse, sorrow for who I’ve been, how I’ve acted, and how I hurt others – and to commit to change my behavior. Am I willing to release my feelings and assume a new attitude?

 

How long am I going to carry these wounds? How long am I going to be shackled to this garbage barge of memories of hurt, anger and shame?

 

All spiritual traditions believe that I am forgiven just to the extent that I forgive; all spiritual traditions believe that I am released just to the extent I release others.

 

Look at my own brokenness—the many betrayals for which I have been responsible. Look at my motives, my role, in the events in which I find myself betrayed. Where was I selfish, self-seeking, dishonest, angry or afraid?

 

In light of my own brokenness, look at their brokenness—see them like me—those that hurt me are themselves hurt, fearful, wounded, sick people—human beings twisted by their own personal histories.

 

Embrace compassion both for them and for my self: they have suffered; they act out of their suffering. I have suffered; I act out of my suffering.

 

I am a weak, wounded human being, full of defects—attempting to survive the difficulties of life and find a little security, peace and happiness.

 

Forgiveness is the release of others and my feelings about the harm they have caused me. The truth is forgiveness often follows deep acceptance of and repentance for my own harmful actions to others.

 

I am powerless to name and accept the truth of the harm I have done; I am likewise powerless to release the memories of the hurt others have done to me.

 

Despite this powerlessness, I have a responsibility to decide not to live in the past. I have a responsibility to decide to live in the present, to accept reality as it is – not as it “should be” or as I want it.

 

Am I willing to embrace the process and release them?

 

Am I willing to pray for the power:

  • To ask for knowledge of the truth?
  • To ask for freedom from the bondage of my own history?
  • To wish for the spiritual healing of those persons, institutions, or events that have harmed me?
  • To forgive myself—to let go of self condemnation, morbid reflection, remorse, my temper, my addictions, my vanities, my arrogance, my smugness, my victim stance; to let go of my failures, to do what I must and become who I really am?
  • To change my attitude and my actions?

 

Am I willing to pray for the power:

  • To love them as I want to be loved?
  • To see the world and the people in it from God’s point of view? To see and accept reality? To identify and release my “unenforceable rules”?
  • To act better than I feel?

 

Invite the healing Spirit of the Universe:

  • Into my mind—that my memories may be healed
  • Into my heart—that my feelings may be healed
  • Into my soul—that my human spirit may be healed and flourish

 

Healing Spirit of the Universe:

  • Enable me to be willing to let go and to forgive: to release and to be released
  • Enable me to be willing to be restored to sanity – to healthy thinking
  • Enable me to be willing to be taken to a place of serenity – to accept reality as it is
  • Enable me to be willing to find freedom – to act with the intention of compassion and loving kindness

 

Holy Spirit, breathe Your Spirit into me.

  • Enable me to live from a vision of being tender love and a witness to the benefits of hope.

 


Herb K. was given the gift of freedom from alcohol February 21, 1984. As a result of the application of the Twelve Steps as contained precisely in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, he experienced a profound spiritual awakening in 1988. Since then he has been very involved in carrying the message of recovery through presentations, facilitating workshops, and leading retreats.

He has authored three books to help people access the instructions and confirm the actual process contained in the Big Book for experiencing a spiritual awakening: Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11 (2017), Twelve-Step Guide to Using the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book (2004) and Twelve Steps to Spiritual Awakening: Enlightenment for Everyone (2010). His books are available on Amazon and other locations.

Intentional Consciousness – A Daily Practice

Author: Herb K.

Rancho Palos Verdes, CA
herbk12@hotmail.com
www.herbk.com

What is the message of the “wee small voice”?

What does it mean?

What is my prior experience?

What is the guidance; what are the implications for me?

What are the suggested principles as guidelines for my attitude and/or action?

What is the suggested change in my attitude and/or action?

What is the personal invitation to me today?

What is my specific response/commitment today?

How will I be accountable for this commitment?

Do I acknowledge the formula for my daily growth in understanding and effectiveness?           

            AWARENESS

            ACCEPTANCE          

            ADJUSTMENT          


Herb K. was given the gift of freedom from alcohol February 21, 1984. As a result of the application of the Twelve Steps as contained precisely in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, he experienced a profound spiritual awakening in 1988. Since then he has been very involved in carrying the message of recovery through presentations, facilitating workshops, and leading retreats.

He has authored three books to help people access the instructions and confirm the actual process contained in the Big Book for experiencing a spiritual awakening: Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11 (2017), Twelve-Step Guide to Using the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book (2004) and Twelve Steps to Spiritual Awakening: Enlightenment for Everyone (2010). His books are available on Amazon and other locations.

The Next Frontier: Emotional Sobriety


Author: Bill W.

I think that many oldsters who have put our AA "booze cure" to severe but successful tests still find they often lack emotional sobriety. Perhaps they will be the spearhead for the next major development in AA—the development of much more real maturity and balance (which is to say, humility) in our relations with ourselves, with our fellows, and with God.

Those adolescent urges that so many of us have for top approval, perfect security, and perfect romance—urges quite appropriate to age seventeen—prove to be an impossible way of life when we are at age forty-seven or fifty-seven.

Since AA began, I've taken immense wallops in all these areas because of my failure to grow up, emotionally and spiritually. My God, how painful it is to keep demanding the impossible, and how very painful to discover finally, that all along we have had the cart before the horse! Then comes the final agony of seeing how awfully wrong we have been, but still finding ourselves unable to get off the emotional merry-go-round.

How to translate a right mental conviction into a right emotional result, and so into easy, happy, and good living—well, that's not only the neurotic's problem, it's the problem of life itself for all of us who have got to the point of real willingness to hew to right principles in all our affairs.

Even then, as we hew away, peace and joy may still elude us. That's the place so many of us AA oldsters have come to. And it's a hell of a spot, literally. How shall our unconscious—from which so many of our fears, compulsions and phony aspirations still stream—be brought into line with what we actually believe, know and want! How to convince our dumb, raging and hidden "Mr. Hyde" becomes our main task.

I've recently come to believe that this can be achieved. I believe so because I begin to see many benighted ones—folks like you and me—commencing to get results. Last autumn [several years back - ed.] depression, having no really rational cause at all, almost took me to the cleaners. I began to be scared that I was in for another long chronic spell. Considering the grief I've had with depressions, it wasn't a bright prospect.

I kept asking myself, "Why can't the Twelve Steps work to release depression?" By the hour, I stared at the St. Francis Prayer..."It's better to comfort than to be the comforted." Here was the formula, all right. But why didn't it work.

Suddenly I realized what the matter was. My basic flaw had always been dependence - almost absolute dependence - on people or circumstances to supply me with prestige, security, and the like. Failing to get these things according to my perfectionist dreams and specifications, I had fought for them. And when defeat came, so did my depression.

There wasn't a chance of making the outgoing love of St. Francis a workable and joyous way of life until these fatal and almost absolute dependencies were cut away.

Because I had over the years undergone a little spiritual development, the absolute quality of these frightful dependencies had never before been so starkly revealed. Reinforced by what Grace I could secure in prayer, I found I had to exert every ounce of will and action to cut off these faulty emotional dependencies upon people, upon AA, indeed, upon any set of circumstances whatsoever.

Then only could I be free to love as Francis had. Emotional and instinctual satisfactions, I saw, were really the extra dividends of having love, offering love, and expressing a love appropriate to each relation of life.

Plainly, I could not avail myself of God's love until I was able to offer it back to Him by loving others as He would have me. And I couldn't possibly do that so long as I was victimized by false dependencies.

For my dependency meant demand—a demand for the possession and control of the people and the conditions surrounding me.

While those words "absolute demand" may look like a gimmick, they were the ones that helped to trigger my release into my present degree of stability and quietness of mind, qualities which I am now trying to consolidate by offering love to others regardless of the return to me.

This seems to be the primary healing circuit: an outgoing love of God's creation and His people, by means of which we avail ourselves of His love for us. It is most clear that the current can't flow until our paralyzing dependencies are broken, and broken at depth. Only then can we possibly have a glimmer of what adult love really is.

Spiritual calculus, you say? Not a bit of it. Watch any AA of six months working with a new Twelfth Step case. If the case says "To the devil with you," the Twelfth Stepper only smiles and turns to another case. He doesn't feel frustrated or rejected. If his next case responds, and in turn starts to give love and attention to other alcoholics, yet gives none back to him, the sponsor is happy about it anyway. He still doesn't feel rejected; instead he rejoices that his one-time prospect is sober and happy. And if his next following case turns out in later time to be his best friend (or romance) then the sponsor is most joyful. But he well knows that his happiness is a by-product—the extra dividend of giving without any demand for a return.

The really stabilizing thing for him was having and offering love to that strange drunk on his doorstep. That was Francis at work, powerful and practical, minus dependency and minus demand.

In the first six months of my own sobriety, I worked hard with many alcoholics. Not a one responded. Yet this work kept me sober. It wasn't a question of those alcoholics giving me anything. My stability came out of trying to give, not out of demanding that I receive.

Thus I think it can work out with emotional sobriety. If we examine every disturbance we have, great or small, we will find at the root of it some unhealthy dependency and its consequent unhealthy demand. Let us, with God's help, continually surrender these hobbling demands. Then we can be set free to live and love; we may then be able to Twelfth Step ourselves and others into emotional sobriety.

Of course I haven't offered you a really new idea—only a gimmick that has started to unhook several of my own "hexes" at depth. Nowadays my brain no longer races compulsively in either elation, grandiosity or depression. I have been given a quiet place in bright sunshine.

 

Copyright © AA Grapevine, Inc. January 1958. Reprinted with permission.

Permission to reprint AA Grapevine, Inc., copyrighted material [in this publication, organization, or website] does not in any way imply affiliation with or endorsement by either Alcoholics Anonymous or AA Grapevine, Inc.

Herb K.'s Meditation | HEALING CIRCUIT

Healing Circuit

If there is a Reality we call God, by definition It is Everything:

It cannot become something;
It does not need anything;
It exists unconditionally.

Anything that is, comes from this Everything – Source overflowing Itself – an act of giving without expectation. We call that Love.

Love is wanting the best for someone else without expectations, without demands, without conditions – purely for the well-being of the other.

“Perhaps God created humans because God thought they would enjoy it.” Greg Boyle, SJ – Tattoos of the Heart

Over time, by the very fact of my existence, I have come to realize I am loved. This is my decision – a bold act of faith – an act of my free will.

A flower sprouts flowers.
A cat bears kittens
A human begets humans.
Love produces love.

This Reality, God, is a verb, not a noun: God’s ecstasy = Love overflowing Itself!

As my feet are for walking;
As my emotions are for feeling;
As my brain is for thinking;
Perhaps my free will is for loving.

Love Loving is my source; thus, my very nature is love; my primary purpose is loving.

When I am love loving, I am being my true self. My life is a gift received and my love is a gift given – without expectations, for the well-being of the other.

When we real-ize we are loved, we are able to love; as we are loving, others real-ize they are loved and are enabled to love.

Others can then real-ize they are loved, without demands, without conditions – purely: that their very nature is love; their very purpose is loving. The gift given is received – by them and then by me.

This is the Healing Circuit!

 


Herb K. was given the gift of freedom from alcohol February 21, 1984. As a result of the application of the Twelve Steps as contained precisely in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, he experienced a profound spiritual awakening in 1988. Since then he has been very involved in carrying the message of recovery through presentations, facilitating workshops, and leading retreats.

He has authored three books to help people access the instructions and confirm the actual process contained in the Big Book for experiencing a spiritual awakening: Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11 (2017), Twelve-Step Guide to Using the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book (2004) and Twelve Steps to Spiritual Awakening: Enlightenment for Everyone (2010). His books are available on Amazon and other locations.