Author: Herb K.

Rancho Palos Verdes, CA

A Meditation

I am full of fear: 100 forms – too many to name:
Fear of not getting what I want and need
Fear of losing what I have
Fear of financial insecurity
Fear of never being made whole, of always being broken
Fear of failure
Fear of looking bad
Fear of not fitting in
Fear of making mistakes
Fear of being a mistake
Fear of my anger; of my fear
Fear of being deceived
Fear of self deceit
Fear of being discovered for who I am
Fear of being overlooked
Fear of being alone
Fear of being uncomfortable
Fear of being honest
Fear of being sick
Fear of dying
Fear that there is no God.

How big is my God? How Powerful is my Creator? How caring is my Father? Trust is the action that follows faith – my decision to believe; my decision to surrender. I am not reliable but Source of the Universe is. I have made, and continue to make, the decision to trust and rely on the Spirit/Soul of the Universe.

Please, Creative Intelligence, show me what you want me to do. Please give me the humility to want to rely on You and to trust You. Let me see reality as You see reality and not be misled by my obsessions, my illusions and my delusions.

Please, reveal to me what and who You would have me be.

Please remove my fear and provide that I come from love and trust.

Herb K. was given the gift of freedom from alcohol February 21, 1984. As a result of the application of the Twelve Steps as contained precisely in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, he experienced a profound spiritual awakening in 1988. Since then he has been very involved in carrying the message of recovery through presentations, facilitating workshops, and leading retreats.

He has authored three books to help people access the instructions and confirm the actual process contained in the Big Book for experiencing a spiritual awakening: Practicing the Here and Now: Being Intentional with Step 11 (2017), Twelve-Step Guide to Using the Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book (2004) and Twelve Steps to Spiritual Awakening: Enlightenment for Everyone (2010). His books are available on Amazon and other locations.